1. |
Someone New
03:49
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If I could have every thought
As though for the first time
I'd never get sick of
The patterns of my mind
But I am stuck
If things go my way
I’ll stay in this room
Where tonight I want to lay
Kissing someone new
With a familiar face
I can’t replace
Because remembering, no
It hasn’t been enough
It’s like the partial glow
A bright flower gives off
At night
Color imprecise
What if I told you
It’ll all just end the same
And then turned to you
Showed you my game
You’d believe I’m stuck
Until I get ahold of
A stranger to remind me
I don’t contain the world
It is outside, can’t I see?
And in it I’m this lucky girl
And how to play my role
'Til I get too old
By then remembering, oh
It better be enough
I'll be covered head to toe
In the faded flower patterns of
Memories
Of nights like these
Of good times passed
I'll be home at last
And I will give
Myself a fucking break
If things go my way
I'll stay in this room
Where again I want to lay
Kissing someone new
Who tells me
Something pretty
So that I too
Can feel like someone New
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2. |
Truth Nugget
04:41
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You shed all your layers
And become a truth nugget
My desperately open boy
You say you can’t hold anything back
It’s a habit
You say what’s on your mind
Whatever’s on your mind
Now you haven’t got anything on
It’s a habit
That dies hard
Watch me do my makeup and hair
While you make up hypotheses out of thin air
I am another solid mystery when it comes to you
Michael, I’m the puzzle in the other room
Mountain park
The gate where you stand guard
And spread a blanket
So you have it
In case I come around
Festively clothed
We’ll shed layers and expose
The naked landscapes of our minds
We’ll crack open our minds
I am one to keep everything on
It’s a habit
That dies hard
Watch me do my makeup and hair
While you make up hypotheses out of thin air
I am another solid mystery when it comes to you
Michael, I’m the puzzle in the other room
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3. |
Dog
03:52
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Before you get to the party
You want to know how it’ll end
Cause your time is precious, babe
And you’ve got so many friends
Show up like a vision
With the dance moves to impress
But your quest for divination
Is what I like the best
Take me by the hand,
Take me where I want to go
I was told to lead
But I need to follow you
Bright wave
I will let you get away
Hey, I will behave
And I will let you get away
With every little thing that you want to do
It might not be you for me but it is me for you
And I hate to be your dog
But I’ve got everything to gain
From your hand on my head
Like I’m about to be trained
Pleasure pleases better
When it comes from every side
But there’s nowhere left to run
No, there is nowhere to hide
You wave and chear
Neverending will to charm
Then you shade a single tear
You never meant any harm
Lying on your bed
You said you gave all you could give
Ask me to come over
And give you reasons to live
Bright wave
I will let you get away
Hey, I will forgive
And I will let you get away
With every little thing that you want to do
It might not be you for me but it is me for you
When you ask me
“Dear,
Who’s the fairest one of all?”
Who gets to be your mirror
If I’m the nail on the wall?
I hate to be your dog
But I could use the company
To go out with on walks
Baby, let it be me
I hate to be your dog
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4. |
Fruit Pit
03:16
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Whose is this?
Not mine
I’d like to use it from time to time
If I lay down I’m fine
Read there
and smoke
A day’s worth of work
Gone through steady and slow
Invisible
If you go anywhere
Will you take me?
And if you lost me there
Would you know where to find me?
Tired and true
Shrinking so small
You could fit me into
Something that belongs to you
Your red fanny pack
Fruit pit
Covered in spit
No one to see
Or interpret my body
And if you go to the show
Will you wake me?
Tell me and nobody else
Let’s not tell anybody
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5. |
Pale
03:01
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Spending this much time
In my naked body’s
Not making it familiar to me
Trying to get used to it,
I read what's on me
See-through blue’s the colour
True love leaves in tiny
Marks, gone so soon
Quiet stars in mid-afternoon,
Pale
“It doesn’t make me feel young”
I say “It’s something more motherly”
I’ll leave in his arms if it’s not I who has to carry
When the night rolls in
a tongue that holds me softly
I'll melt into sleep
and then am told a different story
In dreams gone so soon
Roaring streams taking me to you
Pale
Pale
Pale
Pale
Gone
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6. |
Comfort, Edge
03:43
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(I can never know for sure just what you do
Unless I stick around and see it through
It doesn't ever matter what you say
It always ends up going either way)
(So much later
I've gotten used to your sheets
It wakes me up, I can't sleep
And so I reach for
A tall glass of water
Sip at it watch you dream
And all the secrets you keep
They make me wonder)
You'll never make a fool of me
No,
You'll never make a fool of me
You'll make it so
It's easy for me to get away from you
Without me having to tell you
Where I go or what I do
And all the while protecting and giving me security
I never have to doubt when I come back
You'll still be there for me
Give me comfort, give me edge
Make it easy, make me beg
Let me come for calm and peace
Never stop surprising me
I see your face in the mirror
As it puts on the expression
It only has in reflexions
And I know I'm scared of going further
Into what you choose to show me
A trail of hints I can't see:
You'll fuck me over
You'll never make a fool of me
No,
You'd never make a fool of me
You'll make it so
It's easy for me to get away from you
Without me having to tell you
Where I go or what I do
And all the while protecting and giving me security
I never have to doubt when I come back
You'll still be there for me
Give me comfort, give me edge
Make it easy, make me beg
Let me come for calm and peace
Never stop surprising me
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7. |
The Walk Home
02:29
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8. |
Seven Hours
02:24
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Blood on my thigh
You lick your finger
I don’t know why
I push your hand away
Seven-hour drive
With nothing to say
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9. |
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Smoking at the gas station
Desperate for attention
In small gestures of protest
Trace the outline of my hand
So I’m reminded where I end
Say this is no contest
To be loved by you
I need to get out of the house today
To try my face
Out on strangers
And if anyone’s to look my way
I’ll latch onto their gaze
Demanding answers
How to look more like you?
How can everything feel so familiar?
Do I have to mourn feeling anything that’s unfamiliar?
How can everything seem so familiar?
Do I have to mourn?
(I can’t seem to let it in
To change me again)
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10. |
Lylz
03:03
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Lylz,
You don’t need to worry:
We’ve got this
I’ve got my driver’s license
And you will need to practice
We’ll leave on the sly
Blasting the Boulanger sisters
And if one of us dies
The other will make sure
Her life’s work goes down in history
You’ll be famous
For burning
With desire
For everything
I don’t need to worry we’ve got this
I’m feeling isolated
and you’ve got all the gossip
Come over make face masks
Death masks
For future reference
A statue will smirk at tourists
Sitting on park benches
Lylz,
Let’s get out of here
Yeah, we’ve had it
It’s all smoke and mirrors
The time has come for us to vanish
Burn the bridge to this world
Of terrifying uncertainty
Step on it: hurl us into
Worthwhile mystery
You’ll be famous
For burning
And I’ll be known for
My taste in choosing
Who’s light mine burns out next to
Who I warm my life to
For everything
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11. |
Mid Practice
03:57
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I arrange little scenes
That I place in between
Every moment that I can't control
I let hang my head
From the edge of the bed
When you find me like this
You'll know I've been waiting, love
I'm used to being the actrice
Surprised in mid-practice
Rehearsing love 'til it's real
And also the audience
Before velvet curtains part
And finally reveal if i feel anything,
Let alone love
Can I sink my teeth into your love, please?
I've been practicing so long
Through and through every layer of you
Baby, i could go on and on
What i find worst
Than a love that hurts when it's captive
Is a love that thrives
On being the hunter
and what it is after's a trophy
For its pride
Off I go again
I've got nothing to do
But walk here next to you
We will kiss on the streets we don't know
Where the light hits us best
We've arranged to impress
All the things we have to show
Off we go again
Can I sink my teeth into your love, please?
I do want you to the bone
Through and through every layer of you
Baby, I could go on and on
And I would never want to be left alone
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12. |
Clown Neutral
04:42
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Neither bad nor good
You can ask me what you should do,
I won’t say anything
Neither bad nor good
Don’t ask yourself too long what you should feel,
You can feel anything
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13. |
Fill the Rooms
04:15
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Now that you’ve let me
You’ve let me inside your head,
Did you let yourself forget
I was in there and wanted music?
Now that you’ve put me
You’ve put me in charge of the rest
To entertain your guests
I will fill the rooms with music
You lead me to the basement to
Make me your replacement
You quit
And leave jumping from roof to roof
I guess I’ll be the one to choose
The last thing you hear
Is me screaming
“Come back,
Fill the empty rooms with music!”
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